Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Answers and Questions
"I wait for the Lord, my soul doth wait, and in his word do I hope." Psalm 130:5
I've discovered that no matter how many answers you get to the questions you ask, there are always more questions...and there aren't always answers for all the questions. Yes, today we have a few more answers to the questions we were asking yesterday and for this we are thankful. But there are many more questions to follow and some for which we'll never know the answer. That kind of "merry-go-round" living could be very frustrating if it were'nt for hope. Hope brings something to hang onto when nothing makes sense. Hope in the Lord brings comfort when my head is swirling with the Q's looking for an A. Hope makes the future bearable.
The PET and CT scans brought some answers yesterday. There is evidence now of more malignancy especially in the lymph glands in the center of the chest and abdomen. The severe bloating was fluid which had accumulated because of the tumors. The doctor performed a procedure to draw the fluid out, taking out more than a gallon. Relief was immediate! It was so nice to see Malcom begin to breathe easier and he was at once hungry, not having eaten anything for about 17 hours at that point. He asked for Chinese noodles from "Chinese Chef" and enjoyed eating the first"real food" (as opposed to hospital food!) he'd had in days.
This morning when I called the ICU nurse, she said he had rested well during the night. Praise God. Today he will possibly be moved out of ICU to the oncology floor so that they can begin treatments. I'll be there by his side and there will be many questions to ask. But HOPE will be there too because our Lord is ever near.
I've discovered that no matter how many answers you get to the questions you ask, there are always more questions...and there aren't always answers for all the questions. Yes, today we have a few more answers to the questions we were asking yesterday and for this we are thankful. But there are many more questions to follow and some for which we'll never know the answer. That kind of "merry-go-round" living could be very frustrating if it were'nt for hope. Hope brings something to hang onto when nothing makes sense. Hope in the Lord brings comfort when my head is swirling with the Q's looking for an A. Hope makes the future bearable.
The PET and CT scans brought some answers yesterday. There is evidence now of more malignancy especially in the lymph glands in the center of the chest and abdomen. The severe bloating was fluid which had accumulated because of the tumors. The doctor performed a procedure to draw the fluid out, taking out more than a gallon. Relief was immediate! It was so nice to see Malcom begin to breathe easier and he was at once hungry, not having eaten anything for about 17 hours at that point. He asked for Chinese noodles from "Chinese Chef" and enjoyed eating the first"real food" (as opposed to hospital food!) he'd had in days.
This morning when I called the ICU nurse, she said he had rested well during the night. Praise God. Today he will possibly be moved out of ICU to the oncology floor so that they can begin treatments. I'll be there by his side and there will be many questions to ask. But HOPE will be there too because our Lord is ever near.
5 Comments:
Dear Carol,
I can sense much of your heart....and I am praying and loving and caring for you both. I am glad for the relief re:the bloating. All I can do is pray and love you both....and give an occasional hug when possible. Our only real source of strength is in HIM.
God bless you both,
Mary N
Dear Carol,
Your expressions of faith in the midst of this difficult time in your lives is such a testimony to me and all who read your entries as each day goes by, I'm sure. May the Lord continue to give you strength of heart, mind, spirit, and bring miraculous healing to Malcolm by God's hand, according to His will. May the Lord's comfort and encouragement from the Holy Spirit be yours and Malcolms moment by moment.
Love in Christ,
Marlys, for George, too
Dear Carol,
P.S. to what I just wrote! We are continuing to pray daily for Malcolm....just wanted to reassure you of that! :-)
Marlys
Dear Carol and Malcom,
Each day we live is a gift, and God knows the length of our days. Knowing all that and the reality of Malcom's need, I am praying for God to heal. He is able.
I am sorry to learn the extent of the tumors and will pray for effective, aggressive treatment. Thank you again for taking the time to let us know so we can pray more effectively.
love
Sue M
Dear Pastor Malcom and Ma'am Carol,
"He that spared not His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall He not with Him also freely give us all things?"
And so we pray, and so we ask for He loves to give.
love,
Joel, Chona, Shekinah & Elikah
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